Hamabear

Today is a slow day my friends. The gloomy sunlight that sips thru the storm clouds filled the outside world with a lazy filling. Inside piles of papers, documents, sketches and some tissue fills my office desk with no space for happy thoughts. I really wish that my work is nonexistent right now.

my shoes and umbrella are wet with the heavy rain that accompanied me in my commute this morning. More work piles up and th...

I really want to write something good but this is just not my day...

Heart fluttering.

Eyes tearing.

Tonight alone in the beside the phone my hearth skipped a beat.
My smile could reach my ear as I listen to your voice singing in the other end of the phone.
After being with you for a 4 years you still make me feel all like a teenage girl in love.

Thank you, for being forever mine. My beloved.

Imagine a  thousand swords all falling from the sky. Landing in this great battle field piercing everybody and everything in sight. Can you imagine the blood red sky and the thousands of swords all sticking in the ground?

Now imagine that great battle field is your heart. Imagine every single sword piercing in your soul simultaneously. Hurting you and every time the swords land on you it kills a part of your soul.

No, don't worry the pain will only last for a while. To tell you the truth in time you will even forget   what that pain exactly feels like. What will stick to you is that sad image of battle field . The thought of that bloody waste land. The red sky mourning the sad event. Those are the things that will hunt you forever. The exact thought that  it was possible to feel that incredible pain. That will be the one thing that will never go away. And it will scare you.

It will hunt you in your dreams and it will always be their. Even if you finally picked up each damn sword, let new grass grow and make the field a new you will always be hunted by that attack of the Thousand Swords.

I am telling you this not because I feel sad right now. On contrary I actually feel love.  I feel happy and bless. That battle field I am talking about, right now is field with flowers and butterflies.

But sometime some swords still falls and it hurts. But new grass can always grow. Flowers can always be planted. The sky will always change.

Regrets, sadness and failure.
I know I'll have them in my death bed.
I can see it now, me telling myself that I should have done this and that.
But I believe that is how life is. Life will always be full of regrets and mistakes. The only difference is whether they are things you choose or not.
Its simple really. I believe that no mater what, I will do things on my own terms, my own decision and my own time.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying I'm right. I'm just saying I'd rather live my life base on my thick head and pride.

What wrong in thinking a fairytale ending will happen to me? Or that I will be a person who got success walking the road less traveled?
You guys watched movies, read books, and watch TV. Why cant I be those people? Why do you people put them as heroes when in life people who chose those less traveled roads are discourage?

Life I know I will regret it some day. It cannot be help. We are humans after all. But right now, I will do what I want and I will try to show the world who the real McCoy is.

hey hey
just posted 4 new dev pics... im planing to be active again so stay tune in my future art works...


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